love-that-kid

stick with me! i'm working on it, I swear, haha (:

but on a side note, I need a list of new books to read.. What do you suggest? And I guess why do you suggest it? Recently I've been reading books people have suggested, like... The Virgin Suicides, Atonement, Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist, The Perks of Being a Wallflower... and I reread Alice in Wonderland and Harry Potter because I am a bit of a HP nerd

Suggest whatever you like, I really want something new to read, but no one I know seems to have any interesting suggestions.

i'm trying really hard, i promise
i only really feel comfortable posting this on here because i dont know any of you, and if you cry ATTENTIONSEEKER on me, then I wont be as hurt as I would the people that are around me every day. but the fact is, Ive been going through a really dark period for almost 2 years now, my life literally fell apart, and I just supressed everything, I stopped writing, which I think was my only real emotional outlet, so I guess that didn't help. Anyway, it basically all came to a head about a month, maybe two, ago when it just all got on top of me and I OD'd. I dont think I've fully come to terms with that yet either. I feel like it should scare me more than it has.

My point it, right now, I'm trying to rebuild my life and make it better. I think I'm pretty strong, I also think I'm pretty optimistic, I am, basically, a happy person, but I do suffer from depression pretty badly sometimes. My head is all over the place right now, and all I want to do is create something wonderful. So just bare with me for awhile, please?

And dont freak over this, I just wanted to write it down somewhere, because the people in my day to day life are maybe not so understanding.

just started using twitter, who here uses it? im only wondering because if there's anyone worth following, it would be the wonderfully creative people I admire (: i want to read something worthwhile, not three months worth of "Im going to school! Im going to work! Im brushing my teeth!"

(but of course, once in a while, thats refreshing)

...do something.


i really want to write something amazing. i want to be able to hold my pen and feel an incredible rush of emotion and be able to express it beautifully on the page.

truth be told, I should have a lot of inspiration, for any kind of writing really, which I guess is why I'm so desperate to be able to produce something brilliant.

maybe its having such high expectations of my first piece of writing in almost 2 years that I'm having trouble with it... so this is two journal entries, zero art submissions. fail.

for anyone left who might still read this... I'm back. I think. Yes, after a lengthy dark period I've certainly woken up feeling rejuvenated and creative. Reading my old work, some of it makes me laugh, I definately went through the angsty teen "no one understands me" stage, but also, that some of it has some merit to it... Feel free to agree or disagree..

I'm definately up for attempting to start writing again, I've also been drawing and developed an interest in photography lately, we'll see if it all takes off, as I think I lack certain creative... well, talent (:

I'd also really like to rekindle the old friendships I had on here, or build some new ones feel free to say hi!