in my mystic muddled musing
i have come up with a plan
while you were using and abusing
i found myself a place to land
theres the ground, i plummet towards it
i know where i can rest my feet
and in the monring dawns sweet greetings
there are people i will meet
in my wary weary wandering
i look for somewhere i can rest
in my mind now i am pondering
which of my options is the best
as the day creeps slowly away
i watch you walking all alone
and i know right at this moment
all i want is to go home
as the stars twinkle brightly
the evening wind it brings a chill
and inside i ask myself many questions
sweet baby do i love you s
I want her so much-it hurts
but still, inside I know we will never be.
Nightly I weep for her, for me
and wish someday to be seen as more than just a flirt.
I dream of encounters; fleeting moments
soft touches and warm embrace.
Images cross my mind, filling me with her grace
her soft beauty and entrancing movements.
A heart so cold warms with a smile
fleeting moments; enough to make one feel almost human.
Selfishly, I want to feel again
and selflessly, I would protect her as though an innocent child.
Yet not a moment I wish for will come
not even the simplest of touch.
It pains to crave her so much;
to weep until my tears are d
Hesitating to spill again
Far too scared to hope again
Too jaded to unfold again
You keep me hanging on
Costs of conversation and the
Price I pay in sleep
Just for an extra few minutes,
I don't want to give it up
Sacrifice for something I'm not sure you even see
If the secret you're keeping could
Keep me hanging on, hanging on
Hanging on
I'm weak and I am scared again
Becoming well-aware again
That I might not be exactly
What you'd hoped for
Hiding in the corner and
Eight long months have passed since then
Finding me much stronger than
I ever was before
I ever was and
We never were
You never thought
And I never wondere
Sick of the love I harbor for you,
I wish it wouldn't hurt this way...
Sick of never being able to do,
the things to take the pain away,,,'
Sick of longing to kiss your lips,
and to feel those rushes of emotion.
Ones that send a tingle to your fingertips..
And making your world spin with motion..
Sick of always having you on my mind,
and not being able to see you when i need.
I wish for feelings of a different kind,
but my heart just will not take heed..
Sick of fighting for someone,
that always trys to slip away..
Sick of being the only one,
to want to be with you today...
Sick of having to shed some tears,
just so that you
Chance
by Diane Fisher
Stepping stones across the sky
Tiptoeing across cloud nine
I fight the tempests in my mind
So careful not to fall.
A fire flickers in my heart
Two-toned flames, I bade them start
From the silent deer to the heralding lark
The irony it kills me.
Matters of heart and of the mind
I hope that someday I may find
Fighting doubt and fighting time
A balance of love and logic.
Treasured friend of many years
A bliss that cannot hold back tears
Love is kind, but I must fear
That somehow I will wrong you.
Greatest love is greatest risk
The faster I run the harder I trip
But I throw in the towel of cautiousness
I overreacted,
Tried to shut you out of my life,
Now you're ignoring me,
And the pain stabs like a knife,
Right into my heart,
As I try to end this strife.
I want to stop loving you,
And at least try to mend
The relationship we had
Before we were more than just friends,
Because I can't stand to think,
Is this the end?
I know you're with her;
I don't want to want you back,
Because every time I see you two,
I recieve a mental smack
From thoughts that keep screaming,
What does she have that I lack?!
And I feel like a jealous bitch,
Because I know I should move on,
If I want you to acknowledge my existence,
Before our friends
When the rain
Falls so strong
The sky it breaks
So cold above
Though in my heart
I feel so warm
I miss you now
I'm lost
Candle's fade
is gone
Don't blow out
My light
Kiss me
You give me life
Kiss me
Tonight
Blue eyes should never water.
Neither should they stray.
Don't let them die, not ever,
I want to see them one day.
Blue eyes should remain true,
It doesn't really matter whom to.
As long as they belong to you,
They'll always shine like Morning's dew.
Blue eyes should only have love,
No hatred, nor sorrow.
They were given from those above,
For today, not tomorrow.
So don't wait, blue eyes,
For happiness to come along.
Bid farewell to goodbyes,
And sing your very own song.
Why Do I Even Try? by TheDisturbedAngel, literature
Literature
Why Do I Even Try?
I dont know why I even try.
Its obvious I cant do anything right.
I dont know why I try to believe
How can I have faith in something else when I dont even have faith in me?
Why does everyone want me to be
something that just isnt me?
Why doesnt everyone just leave me alone!
The world will be much better off when Im gone.
Would anyone notice if I cried?
If I left would anyone want to say goodbye?
Would anyone notice if I stopped breathing,
Or would they just go on laughing, happy, not even caring?
Why does everyone act like they care
But when I need them, theyre never there?
Why is my house just a place to stay?
A hell hole I ha
She's a nightwalker
And a sleep talker
Yeah, she knows all about the street
But when it comes down to it
She stands on her own two feet
Her momma always told her
Find a man whose rich and older
Thats how she started out
But year by year she found
Just what life's all about
Each night those eyes grow colder
With every man getting bolder
And the night she said she'd had enough
The guy was wrong
When he called her bluff
She prayed his body wouldn't be found
With another shot of whiskey downed
But now at night he haunts her bed
And she wakes up screaming
I wish I were dead!